Sad Sweethart... [sic]

Sorry about the [sic], I only used it for alliterative purposes. I think I just made that word up.

Today was crazy and I'll be up until like three or four doing math and science homework (AP Chem, AP Calc, Adv. Bio), but I felt like I needed to update this.

Also, why are girls so emotional? I don't understand it. It's not a bad thing; I'm just not an emotional person and I have a hard time connecting to girls who are dumping their feelings on me... I hate to say it, but a blank Word document or OpenOffice or whatever you prefer is probably better to dump on than me... but maybe that's because I'm "intimidating" and antisocial and scary. Why should intelligence and honesty be intimidating? Shouldn't they actually be the reverse? I would never want someone to lie to me for any reason... Actually, that's good comment fodder. Anyone who reads this, leave a comment on something you think I wouldn't want to be told the truth about. Sorry about the word verification; I didn't want any more comment spam.

So, regarding Sweetheart... the person never fessed up or came forward or anything. I wanted to know who it was so badly, too! Oh well... anonymous crushes are cute, but it'd be a nice ego boost to know who likes me. Not that I need a bigger ego or anything. I mean, c'mon, I'm blogging. That makes me feel like my ego is inflated enough.

So Sarah and I decided we would go to a movie (I kind of want to see Aeon Flux but I don't know if she'll be into that) and then she'll come over and we'll... I don't know what we'll do. I'll show her stuff on the computer (pics, music) and we'll talk maybe. Sounds sort of cool... I felt bad because it sounded like she sort of wanted to go to Sweetheart with me after I half-assedly asked her. Wow, I'm making up words all over the place, aren't I? So it's a little because I feel bad but mainly because she's fun to spend time with... though I do admit there are times I feel frustrated because she has a tendency to make statements about what she would think I would do. Perhaps it's inaccuracy of language, but those statements frustrate me because I don't like to be put in boxes. She claims not to know me that well but then makes future character judgments about me, which is almost the most frustrating thing in the world, because it means she already has me in a box and her view of me has become static. I hope this isn't the case, but in all past relationships any change of perception made after future judgment casting has trended toward zero. That was way too complicated wording. I mean that after people put me in a box, they tend not to want to take me out and put me in another box.

With regards to how I handle that, I can't do it in real-time... I don't know if anyone can. I have to re-evaluate the data and re-establish references to other relationships to place someone in a new "box." Which I don't get the chance to do often, admittedly, but it happens every once and a while. This week is way to busy and I'm going to have to do some sitting around this weekend so my brain gets a chance to process the backlog of data that's building up. That's why I would need a job that's sort of stressful so it's fun but it would also have to be on-and-off stressful so I would get a chance to process data on a regular interval so nothing becomes static... or, perhaps more appropriately, stagnant. Hmm... haven't seen that relationship before. The prefix sta- must mean stable or to remain. Seems pretty logical and I'm amazed I was never observant enough to spot that before.

Anyway, so I'm not going to Sweetheart :(
But it's as much by choice as it is by situation, so that frown wasn't warranted.

Anyway, I've just recently had an A.P. Chem A-ha! moment, so I'm going to go finish that then do calc and bio. Night.